Part of an e mail I sent this morning.

Something odd just hit me as I was responding to your e mail: my whole life, I've kind of just done what I please whether dating someone or not. For example, in 2004 I was dating Adam. George (a guy I dated in 2000) wanted to go to India-- so I went. I didn't really care what the guy I was dating would think-- I pretty much said, "want to throw a fit... be my guest." Or even last year when I said I would go to Miami-- I was kind of dating that Nate guy-- who didn't care enough to get in a fight about it-- and I didn't care enough to care if he cared. I think there are countless times that show I just did what I wanted without regard for a guy's feelings about it. When I saw you were going to Buenos Aires, I thought-- man, I would love to go with you and then dismissed the thought as inappropriate. Does that mean I am attached? Is that what that means. That I've finally entered the world of giving a damn about the person I am with?