Pray for your enemies.

I've always heard it. It didn't hit me until yesterday. I was praying for someone I love.. that God's spirit would fall on him like rain in Pakistan. and then it hit me. I should be praying for her. Driving down Mulford, I passed the masque.. I should be praying for her. I hate her.

but what if... what if those prayers turn answered.. and the spirit of goodness and righteousness falls on her. What a better solution. The first time, ever... that I got it.

I actually pulled over. In awe of that moment.

And all along I had had it all wrong-- I shouldn't be praying that they get hit by a bus. But that they are blessed by god. Think of how that changes the whole situation?

When someone who has stolen from you becomes blessed by god and filled with his spirit- he returns things. Someone who has taken advantage of you-- suddenly rights their actions. The world is a better place.



So what if that person is happier- at least they are doing what is right-- and their righteousness will most likely change the adversity afflicted upon you, right?

Presumably if my prayers are answered, my pain is healed.

More so, it's kind of passive aggressive and self-righteous, because when they realize their actions, they are forced to apologize or agonize over their wrong doing. I will now pray for Steven and Amy-- they work for CHASI. Not that they will change but that they will be filled with righteousness and a kind spirit.. and actions that follow. That they will be blessed with the spirit of god and with wisdom.

I will pray for her. I will cry while I do it. But I will do it.

My prayers changed as of yesterday.

Don't get me wrong, this does not mean that I am perfect or nice... or that I don't actually wish evil upon some people.